My Jorb Sux

I can NOT deal with the new job.

I can't deal with my life.

And when I was stupid enough to ask my older brother for advice- to tell our mom that I was quitting the new job...
He mentioned that I was being irrational.
I told a friend of mine that I called- and he pointed out that calling my older brother was irrational, which I guess it was.

But right now my big fear is that my irrationalness will turn into acting on my suicidal thoughts.
At the gift store I was able to think that the job would be better if ONLY something bad happened to Kenny but at this new store… it all sucks.

I can’t deal with the fact that I have a master’s and my job is basically buying video games and electronics from thieves and druggies.

I hate my life.

Addition:
My brother called me after I wrote this, I answered his call- he told me that he felt it shouldn't matter to me what our folks thought, that x-mas was just a construct, as was marriage. He went on to suggest that I try to get my old job back or just keep at the job. I then told I didn't really want to think about it... he suggested that we talk about something else. I told him I just wanted to be left alone. Said goodbye and then hung up.
He then called back and told me that I should be MORE THANKFUL to him for him 'wasting' 15 min. of his life.
I told him I wanted to be alone.
Called a friend to tell him how stupid I was for even THINKING of calling my brother... and then unplugged my phone.
So I've added the older brother tag... and even though I then read a book for a bit... I'm still thinking about him and the job...
And trying to decided exactly WHAT I'll regret doing by friday.