One Day...

Maybe one day I'll actually learn not to deal with my father and his current wife.

Maybe one day I'll learn to keep my big mouth shut when dealing with my father and his current wife.

Maybe one day I won't apologize after they get me to lose my temper.

Yes- I sent her an angry email after she had the nerve to ask me 'what have I done for him[ my father] lately'. Even though I think it was my right to get pissy at her.
However, I listened to my mom, again maybe something I should do less of, and sent my father and his wife a quisi apology. I didn't say I was wrong or she was right, merely that we both were angry when we sent each other our emails.

I feel dirty for sending this letter and depressed because either they'll accept it and I'll have to deal with them or they won't accept it and they'll come after me with their anger over how MY letter was much worse then her's.

One of my best friend's didn't want to hear it today, because he's tired of hearing me whine about my family. I don't blame him. I'm tired my family as well.....
But I'm tired of alot of the crap in my life.